Have I gone mad?
Sometimes I question whether or not I am a rational being. Why on earth did I decide to write a grant the day before the deadline? Never mind the fact that I wasn't aware the grant even existed until just now, but what possessed me to think it was an idea worth pursuing?
I suppose I can explain myself ~ money is tight at our school and I'm a new teacher, so my ideas aren't always worth much. I'm a fairly decent writer, so it's not hard for me to crank out sentences and answer the appropriate questions. Grad school is fresh on my brain, so the current buzz words are still rolling around in my head.
But still . . . was it really worth it to frolic around like a speedwalking caffeine addict all day just to gather signatures & phone numbers & catalog numbers & so forth? I doubt it will get funded. But I can't say I didn't try, right? Whew.
While I'm a little annoyed that they've canceled school already for tomorrow (and the first flake of snow hasn't even been sighted!!), I'm sure I'll enjoy sipping tea on my own couch instead of dealing with over-excited middle schoolers tomorrow!!
I suppose I can explain myself ~ money is tight at our school and I'm a new teacher, so my ideas aren't always worth much. I'm a fairly decent writer, so it's not hard for me to crank out sentences and answer the appropriate questions. Grad school is fresh on my brain, so the current buzz words are still rolling around in my head.
But still . . . was it really worth it to frolic around like a speedwalking caffeine addict all day just to gather signatures & phone numbers & catalog numbers & so forth? I doubt it will get funded. But I can't say I didn't try, right? Whew.
While I'm a little annoyed that they've canceled school already for tomorrow (and the first flake of snow hasn't even been sighted!!), I'm sure I'll enjoy sipping tea on my own couch instead of dealing with over-excited middle schoolers tomorrow!!
2 Comments:
Stressful, yes. I think I'm also realizing that the things I dislike about teaching are the things I have very little power to change, which is frustrating.
I've tried asking veteran teachers why they've stayed in the same career, and I haven't really received many inspirational answers. Mostly they just reflect on "how it used to be."
At any rate, we're over 1/2 way through the year! :) Thanks for reading - I didn't realize anyone still did!
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Kat, at 4:49 PM
I'm late to the party but still here!
Are you a little crazy? Probably. Is it worth all the effort? Absolutely. Am I proud of you for trying? You bet!
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phd me, at 12:24 AM
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