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Thursday, November 09, 2006

Grrrrr. . .

Sometimes I wish I had a pressure valve that would release all my frustration. Instead, I'll just vent about it here, and hopefully feel better about the state of things afterwards.

I feel guilty even to start to complain, since this year is 500% better than last year. In fact, if it weren't for the kids this year, I'm not sure I'd want to do this much longer.

Whine #1: Our principal has nominated our school for an award ~ "Schools to Watch" or something like that. Somehow we are one of the 4 finalists, and the judges will be visiting our school in December to make their final decision.

This is all fine & dandy. I don't necessarily think we're a "school to watch, and I actually think we're failing a large population of our student body. But I'll root for our school if it means our kids will be in the limelight for a little while. The really irritating piece is that our principal has urged us to "make sure you're doing hands-on lessons" while these people are visiting. Excuse me?? If you think we're worthy enough to nominate us for this recognition, at least have the decency to believe in what we're doing. Shouldn't it be sufficient to tell us the dates of this very important visit, and trust that we'll do what we do best, which is teach? We shouldn't have to put on a dog & pony show for these people to convince them that we're worth watching.

Whine #2: I had to sit through a required professional development session this week on "Culturally Relevant Classrooms." Again, this is an important topic & it needs to be addressed. However, I know that the majority of the 100+ teachers in the room have graduated within the past 5 years from college or grad school, and therefore have had significant exposure to this topic. The seminar wasn't practical, didn't present any new info to me, and felt like a waste of time. The veteran teachers in my school, however, would undoubtedly benefit greatly from such a meeting. I've heard some pretty non-politically correct (& downright racist) statements coming from the long-timers, who probably wouldn't know a Native American from a Hispanic if their lives depended on it.

Whine #3: We're constantly reminded to use our instructional time well, and to avoid things like taking the team outside or showing movies. I fully recognize the value of classroom instruction; it's one of the reasons I'm a teacher. And yet, the 6th grade dance this winter is going to be from 12:30 -2:30 one afternoon . . . yes, that's during school hours. What kind of mixed message is our administration giving? The 8th grade dance is some Friday evening very close to Winter Break. And initially, the only 8th graders who'd be allowed to attend would be those who had 1) never been tardy 2) completed 80% of their work and 3) never been in ISS or OSS. One teacher piped up and said, "So you're throwing a dance for all the white, nerdy kids?" So now, kids who haven't been in ISS or OSS can come to the dance, which is still problematic (in my opinion), because it punishes the kids twice. What's the point of that? I can kind of see the reasoning behind prohibiting OSS kids from coming, but ISS is supposed to be a consequence itself (even though the ISS teachers let kids go back to class for good behavior . . . don't even get me started on that one!)

I feel crabby, not better, after writing all of this. My methods prof from grad school used to tell us, "Sometimes you just have to go in your room, close the door, ignore the frustrations, and teach your heart out." I've taken his advice more than once this year already. Thankfully, my students are the highlight of every day. They are so inquisitive and happy to be learning, for the most part. I know I need to focus on them instead of everything else that isn't working this year, because otherwise I'll never make it in this profession.

Fortunately, this is a 3-day weekend, and I fully intend to enjoy it. I think I'll plant my tulips. At this rate, I'll need something cheery in the spring.



Friday, November 03, 2006

1 down, 3 to go

The seemingly never-ending 1st quarter is over! 2nd quarter will undoubtedly fly by ~ all the holidays will help to break it up a bit. I'm thankful to have my afternoons back, now that cross country is over. I'm proud to say that we did have the fastest middle school cross country runner in the county on our team. (Come to think of it, we also had the slowest girl in the county, but we adore her all the same)

I found out that one of the grants I wrote earlier this year was funded! I was pretty excited about it; we'll be able to buy some updated video equipment & incorporate it into the classroom. The very next day, I received a rejection letter for the other grant I wrote . . . c'est la vie, I suppose. It looks like most of the funded ideas for that grant were from elementary school teachers building compost heaps with live worms & such. I guess my geocaching idea with GPS units for middle schoolers wasn't nearly as "cool." Anyhoo . . .

My kids' creativity never ceases to impress me, probably b/c I possess very little myself. They created booklets on ocean zones & habitats, and I was particularly amused by one student's project. She had written a page about marine sanctuaries, and then drew a picture of an underwater church to illustrate this. Beside it she wrote, "Praise Cod." Clever, eh?

Administration is bothering me this year. They put an incredible emphasis on end-of-course testing, which is typical of public schools, I presume. However, we (teachers) are increasingly pushed to collaborate with same-subject teachers to ensure that our lessons & testing are identical. I'm all for collaboration, and I feel like my coworkers do this very well. I don't quite see the point of clone-teaching, though . . . we all have very distinct styles & philosophies (& students!!!) I agree with having similar objectives throughout a grade level, but identical lessons - no way. I'm on an ESL team, so my instruction is often differentiated to meet different needs than a teacher on an EC team. Sometimes I think I'd like to teach at a smaller school; ours is the largest middle school in the district. Or a year-round school, perhaps. I think I'm discovering more of what "could be" at other schools, while trying to make the best of my present situation.

At any rate, it's Friday! And next week we're starting Cells . . . a much more exciting unit (in my opinion!) than Oceans. As for now, I'm off to enjoy the weekend.